Thursday, January 10, 2013

Me Enamoré

2013.  It has finally arrived.  The year I thought would never come; the one that lingered off in the distance just out of reach.  It is here.  2013.  The year I go home.

When I accepted this gig in the Peace Corps back in February of 2011, I had no idea how far away August 2013 actually was.  When I landed in Peru in June of 2011, the stark reality hit me.  And it hit me hard.  Here I was, living in a strange country, (trying to) speak a different language, totally unaware of what was in store for me.  27 months of not knowing what’s going on?  27 months away from friends?  27 months of living far away from my family?  27 months of 24/7 Spanish?  No, thanks!  The thought of actually making it to the year 2013 without giving up was absurd.  There was no way I could make it; no way was I going to live in a different country for TWO WHOLE YEARS.  I think I came to a silent understanding with myself that I would not last until 2013.

Yet, as I type this, we are already almost half-way through January.  What?  When did that happen?  How did 2013 sneak up on me like that?  The words of one of my favorite Peruvian songs explains it best, “Me enamoré.  Sin querer, sin razón, sin motivo.  No sé como fue pero me enamoré.”  Loosely translated, it means, “I fell in love.  Without wanting to, without reason, without purpose.  I don’t know how it happened, but I fell in love.”   How true that is.  I fell in love with this country, with the way of life, with my host family, with my kids, with the stupid television shows, with Cumbia music, with mangos, with marcianos, with naps after lunch, with bailes, with trips to the river, with bucket baths, with Spanish, with absolutely everything.  Even the things that I hate, like loud speakers blasting music at 6am and the Piuran heat, have become dear to me.  I have fallen in love with all of the little things that make up my time here.  Yet still, I don’t quite understand how more than a year and a half has already passed me by.  It’s definitely true what they say, “The days pass slowly, but the months fly by.” 

2013 has arrived.  And with it, a million more experiences, and finally, the day that I will go home.  I’m ready.  I’m ready to finish my time here with a bang and make as many more memories as I can.  I’m ready to go to the river a million more times; ready to drown myself in Inca Kola; ready to make a thousand more friendship bracelets; ready to sweat profusely in this heat; ready to take a nap every afternoon with my host sister on the mattress we strategically placed directly in front of the door; ready to experience it all.  I’m ready for the months ahead, and, come August, I will be ready to go home.  Bring it on, 2013.  I’m ready.

“It is said that you don't know what you have until it's gone.  But, it is also true that you don't know what you have been missing until it arrives!”
                        --Tara Battaglia

Friday, December 28, 2012

Home Sweet Home

Home.  So many different thoughts and emotions come to mind when I say that word.  I think of my family, my brothers, my parents, my friends.  I imagine my house and yard, my own bed, my car, the kitchen.  I see a house full of people; I smell the delicious aroma of copious amounts of food; I hear the sounds of people laughing and talking, with Wheel of Fortune in the background; I feel the warmth of a hot shower and a blanket wrapped around me on the couch; I taste the iced tea as it slides down my throat.  Home means so many things to me.  It means love and acceptance, family, friends, good times, bad times, laughter, tears.  It means all sorts of different things.


In October, I was able to feel and experience each and every one of those things.  In October, I was HOME.  The months and weeks leading up to my visit home seemed to drag on and on.  I couldn’t focus on any one thing without thinking about being home.  I counted down the hours and minutes until I boarded that plane.  I wanted to tell everyone in the airport that I was going HOME.  Finally, after almost a year and a half away, I was going home.


The last few minutes of that flight from Atlanta were agonizing.  I thought the plane would never land.  Then it seemed to take years to find our gate.  As soon as that plane door was open, I was off that plane and speed walking to the front of the airport.  I may have body checked a few people on the way; I can’t be sure.  The only thing on my mind was turning that last corner and seeing my family; nothing else in the world mattered at that time.  When I finally did make it around that corner, I was overcome with emotion.  I expected my Mom and Dad, maybe my best friends; but I had no idea what was in store for me.  There, waiting for me, were so many people that I love.  I may have had one of the largest welcoming parties the Wichita airport has ever seen.  I laughed and cried and hugged, and laughed some more.  I just couldn’t believe that I was HOME, that I was actually hugging my Nana, my aunts and uncles, my parents, my best friends.  In that moment, I was on Cloud Nine.  I still can’t believe that I had such an exciting welcome, and my heart still skips a beat when I think about everyone being there.  I’m one lucky girl.


The first night at home was pure bliss.  I didn’t do anything.  I sat in my kitchen and talked, laughed, and joked around.  I watched Wheel of Fortune.  I ate chili.  Various family members stopped by to chat.  I took a hot shower.  I watched TV with my parents.  It was like any other night at home.  I was relieved to find that nothing had changed too much.  I could easily fall back into my role as daughter, niece, granddaughter, friend. 
 

I found two underlying themes to my visit home: relief that nothing had changed TOO much, and excitement or confusion over the things that had.  My friends were still the same people I left over a year ago, but they had also all changed so much.  My family was still the same, but many things were different.  I don’t know if I can fully describe how it felt to be home after being gone for so long.  I saw the changes in people that no one else notices because they happen over time.  I picked up on the differences in attitude or temperament of my friends and family.  It was like I was in an alternate universe where everything was the same, yet different at the same time.  I don’t think there are words to describe what it was like.  It wasn’t a bad thing or a good thing; just different.


Despite the conflicting emotions about changes, my trip home was perfect and unforgettable.  It made me realize just how lucky I am.  I have a family that loves and supports me, and that will show up at the airport to surprise me.  I have the kind of friends that people only ever dream of.  I have a beautiful house full of love and laughter.  I have friends that will fly halfway across the United States just to surprise me for the weekend.  I have the friends that started bawling and showering me with hugs when they saw me for the first time, and the ones that jumped up and down with excitement.  My best friends showed up at the airport to welcome me home, and my Budzillas were at my first Family Fest.  I have a family full of people who will dress up in tux and pretend to be a taxi driver at the airport or come barreling to my house when they found out I was finally home.  I have friends that changed their entire schedule just to be able to see me for a few minutes.  I have friends whose families accept me as part of their own and who are an extension of my own family.  I am the luckiest girl on the planet.  If I didn’t already know all of this before, my trip home only made it more apparent.


I won’t bore you with all the details of my visit; just know that it was wonderful and perfect and tiring and fantastic and I wouldn’t have had it any other way.  Here’s looking forward to being home for good!


“The only life worth living is the one you’re passionate about.”
                   -- Glee

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Caminata That Almost Killed Me

Friday night.  How do I even begin to describe it?  It wasn’t awe-inspiring.  Nothing awesome or bad or scary happened.  Nothing exciting took place.  All I can say is, it rained.


The night that 120 youth and I walk 25 kilometers on the side of the road is the very same night that it rains.  Of course it would work out like that.  Whyyyy was I walking on the side of the road with 120 kids, you ask?  Honestly, I don’t really know why.  Every year the Catholic Youth Organization holds a weekend festival honoring the Virgin Mary.  And every year the people that live outside of Paita walk from their towns to the city.  For us, that meant 25 kilometers, which is about 15 miles.  Doesn’t sound too horrible, does it?  Well, it was.  Let me paint you a picture.

We set out in the Municipality bus around 11:15pm (we were supposed to leave at 10:00).  The bus dropped us off on the main highway to meet up with the kids from all the surrounding districts.  We waited there for the rest to arrive.  At 12:30, the last of the groups still hadn’t arrived, and we were growing short on time and patience.  We decided to head out at 12:45pm.  So, in the complete and utter darkness, we started walking.  Was it cold?  Absolutely.  Did I bring a jacket?  Of course not.  I only had my hoodie and jeans to keep me warm (I should have listened to my host mom when she told me to bring a blanket and some gloves).  But, it didn’t seem like it would be too bad.  We were energetic, we were awake, and we were ready to go!

We hit our first kilometer- cheers!  I thought to myself, this isn’t so bad, I can do this.  Only 24 kilometers to go.  We made it to the hour mark.  Still not terrible, but not as much fun as I thought it would be.  We made it to Colan, about 2 hours and 6 or so kilometers in.  Finally, we decided to take a short break.  We rested on the side of the road for about 15 minutes, then struggled to our feet to continue.  I kept hoping for a car to pass that could take me back to El Arenal and my bed.  Plenty of cars passed, but none of them that would deliver me to my dream.  And then in started raining.  It NEVER rains in Piura.  Surely this is a sign from God that we should call someone for a ride.  Nobody else seemed to agree with me.  Then, after what seems like days since we started walking, we hit 4:30 in the morning.  Everyone keeps telling me, “Just a little bit more.  We’re almost there.  We’re so close!”  Liars.  Every.single.one.of.them.  We were NOT almost there.  It was NOT just around the corner.  We make it to a factory that I know is still a good 3-4 kilometers outside of town, and I think I’m going to lose my mind.  I’m tired, I’m hungry, I have to pee, and my entire body aches.  We take a break at the factory, and I immediately fall asleep in the dirt and rocks on the side of the road.  When I’m jostled awake 7 minutes later, I don’t think I can get up.  I don’t want to keep going.  I want to be a baby and quit and wait until morning when someone can take me home.  But my kids won’t let me quit.  So I begrudgingly get up and start walking again.  Then I’m hit with a burst of energy, and I start running.  I drag my friend Edson along and we run for a couple minutes.  We’re far ahead of the rest of the group, and it feels good.  We’d been the very last ones all night, so the change of scenery is welcome.  We keep walking and what we think is a decent pace, and all of the sudden we hear people talking.  What!  They’re right behind us.  How did this happen?   I could have sworn we were practically flying.  Guess not.  Guess we were slower than we thought.  Eventually, we find ourselves at the back of the crowd, yet again.  Deliriously, we trek on.  5:45- the sun is starting to peek over the horizon, and I see the “WELCOME TO PAITA” sign up in the distance.  Hallelujah!  Praise God that we are almost there.  Another 15 minutes and we reach our destination.  6:03am is the exact minute that I collapsed to the ground in exhaustion and elation.  A magical truck with little fairy elves  flew up and showered us with coffee and sandwiches for breakfast.  One of the fairies gave me a blanket made of unicorn hair and covered me with it.  I fell asleep on a bed of purple grass.

I was jolted awake much too soon.  The stadium, our ultimate destination, was finally open.  We walked across the street, used the restroom, brushed our teeth, and tried to feel as human as possible.  We sat in the stands and waited for the big event to take place.  We were greeted by two nuns and a guitar.  Ok, it didn’t seem likely, but there was still a chance that this could be cool.  But it wasn’t.  The nuns couldn’t even sing.  And they didn’t know how to play the guitar.  I can’t even describe my disappointment.  Now, I’m not knocking on Jesus music- I know and love a lot of great songs about Jesus.  And that is what I was expecting- something upbeat, fun, joyful, something to wake me up and get me ready for the day.  But that’s not what I got.  I got two nuns, strumming wrong chords on a guitar, singing off-pitch and depressing songs.  I walked all night for this?  At least the morning was salvaged by some delicious quaker and another sandwich. 

After about an hour and a half of the singing nuns, my kids were pretty fed up.  We were all tired, hungry, smelly, and irritable.  We decided to check out early and head to the church to pay our respects, and then scoot ourselves on home.  So we walked, another hour, to the church.  We sat, we prayed, we paid our respects.  Then we went to the park across the street to wait for our Municipality’s bus to come pick us up.  10:00am.  We wait for 30 minutes, certain that the bus will be there any time.  11:00am rolls around- still no bus.  11:30- nothing.  Noon- still nothing.  I wander around to the store and buy some stuff to waste time.  12:30- nope.  1:00pm- what the hell! Still.no.bus.  The kids are getting irritated, and I’ve been irritated since about 2:00am last night.  Fiiiiinally, around 1:30, the bus shows up!!  We’re all elated!  We run to the bus and jump in!  We’re ready to go- except for the fact that the bus seats about 20, and we are 35.  Oh well, we’ll deal.  Now all we need to do is reverse out of this space and move forward.  But the bus won’t reverse.  Are you kidding me?  We waited 3 ½ hours for the bus and now we can’t even get out of our parking spot?!  The boys had to get out and push the bus from the front in order for us to be able to switch gears and move forward.  Now, we’re in the middle of the Plaza the whole time this is happening, so we are creating quite the spectacle.  Everyone is watching, and my kids are mortified.  I, of course, can’t keep from laughing.  Finally, we’re out of the space, the boys are crammed back in the bus, and we’re ready to go. 

We roll around the corner and are on our way- or so we thought.  We turn onto a narrow street with the intention of turning right on the next street.  Except the next street is one-way, and it’s not going the way we want.  No big- we’ll just turn left.  Nope.  The bus can’t make the turn.  So the only choice we have left is to reverse down the street and go another way.  But there are cars and mototaxis behind us and we can’t move.  In fact, there were 8 blocks worth of cars and trucks and motorcycles and mototaxis behind us, and none of them are happy.  I felt like I was in New York during rush hour.  People are yelling, drivers are getting out of their cars, everyone is honking.  It was quite the sight to see.  Finally, after about 20 minutes of yelling and apologizing and some slick maneuvering, we have successfully reversed and are back on the road.  So, we’re truckin’ along, trying to find the road that takes us out of town.  But we can’t find it.  The one we want to use is blocked off for the Procession, and the other one is under construction.  We are trapped.  We try about 10 different routes, along the way colliding with a mototaxi and damaging its tire along with our bus.  We have been going in circles for about 30 minutes now.  Finally, we come  back around to the Plaza and the road we want is now open!  Thank goodness!  We’re on our way!

For about 7 minutes, until we stop at the market to “quickly pick up some pop to drink.”  Nothing in Peru happens quickly.  After another 30 minutes of sitting in the sun on an un-moving bus, sweating our butts off, we’re finally on our way.  And another 30 minutes later, we make it to El Arenal.  I have never been so happy to see my little town in the entire time I’ve lived here.  The bus drops me off just below my house, and I don’t think I can climb the little hill to make it to my door.  But I do make it.  And then I shower, eat a quick lunch, and lay down for a quick power nap.

Then, 18 hours later, I woke up.

Although I’m grateful for the experience and I made some lasting memories, I will never EVER participate in the Caminata again as long as I live.  Especially if it rains.

“Only those who will risk going too far can possibly 
find out how far one can go.” 
                         --Unknown